“At every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss” (Eleven Minutes, Paulo Coelho)

You can call me, RM.

There is nothing special about me, nothing unusual, nothing out of the ordinary. I eat, breathe and take a load of shit…from life, like everyone else. But I try to be happy, although happiness can be obscure at times. This is the main reason why I am re-inventing this blog…’cause yeah, it existed and left untouched since I can’t even remember when.

So let me start by introducing myself and if you like what you’re reading, you may move onto the next round of ranting : the posts.

I am a 24 years old gal living in one of the biggest city–population-wise that is–in Canada : Montreal, QC. When I was a little kiddo, I often thought that this was the most boring city in the whole wide world. But that’s because back then my allowable perimeter of adventure was home, school, and back home again. Then I turned 18 and I met the boy of my dreams. Adventure made a whole new sense to me. I started appreciating what this city had to offer (nightlife, festivals, shopping etc etc.) and with him, I broadened my cultural awareness by traveling here and there, and discovering new facets of life.

Like most people, I live my life the way I think it ought to be. The path I chose to live may not have been the greatest one, and I do regret a few things, but I believe that regretting is a step closer to achieving inner peace. By regretting we acknowledge the truth that our actions portrayed, thus the choices that we make on the present day will reflect a better judgment (hopefully). Whoa. Sometimes I do say the darnest things, but let’s face it, it’s nothing new. I’m probably influenced way too much by self-help books.

Recently, I have been re-thinking and re-organizing my set of goals, priorities, ambitions, dreams etc etc. You would think that it’s because I’m at that point in my life where I don’t wanna live like a F-up anymore and decided to put on my big girl pants (or skirt, whatever) and start building a future. You wouldn’t be completely wrong. However, the main reason is because I am currently undergoing a post-breakup emotional rollercoaster ride. So what, right? 

It is quite funny how people always have something to say when things go wrong in their lives. One would think that the main motor for happiness is to hurt like hell. Maybe I’m wrong, however, I haven’t found any reason not to think that way…yet. Thus, I am here (now and maybe a little more often starting today). 

Maybe it’s because I am lonely and my subconscious is begging to find a refuge, and my only solace is a place no one calls home, the internet. Maybe I just need to let my steam out or express whatever I need to express, because the only person I ever did truly talk to and confide in is gone with the wind. For whatever reason, I feel like blogging. This blog may turn out to be a pile of dumps, but this is my own little hood and it will cherish my thoughts…

In spite of my current state of mind and the emotional turmoil that I am presently experiencing, I do not intend to focus only on my love life in this blog. If you see that I am constantly sulking about affairs of the heart, please slap me…a wake-up call message. I apologize in advance.

FYI I like to think of myself as an in-the-process-of-being artist. So yeah, from time to time I’ll post some weird unfinished paintings or drawings. Indulge me.

Thank you for making it through the end of my self-introduction. Hopefully it wasn’t too painful. Honestly, I suck at describing what I’m all about, so I usually just go off track and talk about anything and everything vehemently so as to confuse people. Oops, my secret is out.

:)