When you’ve been in a long-term relationship (in my case, it was six years), how do you go from being lovers one day to being complete strangers the day after? Is friendship an option or is it better to erase that person completely from your entourage?
These past few months, I’ve been reading self-help books and articles to maybe find the answers to the questions that keep lurking in my head. Still, I feel pretty lost.
I’ve always believed in fighting for love instead of the same old cliché we hear all the time “if you love something, set it free…”. But I’ve reached my deadend. My patience is almost at its end and my hopes are nothing but ashes now. Nothing I do helps, and everything I do just makes things worst. Heaven knows that I tried for so long, invested everything I had, is what I did. However, it makes me so mad to think that all of that was in vain.
My long time lover, friend and accomplice in life has left me, it’s been 4 months. He blamed me for our downfall and shut me off completely (well technically, we still saw each other quite a few times afterwards when nature called, but that’s over now). This was not the first time we broke up, but I guess it would be the last. After all the heartbreaks and painful memories, you’d think I’d learn my lesson, but still I kept going back for more.
There’s something about being dumped… Somehow, you can’t quite picture the “end” of the relationship if you don’t drag yourself further in the mud. I regret to say, these past few months I did some shameful things. But that would be another story.
