Lack of motivation

I am registering for summer courses next week. It’s been awhile since I haven’t really stepped into school to study. I’m not about to make any more excuses, it all just became so pathetic. Even to my ears, it sounds stupid.

It’s been a year since I was kicked out. I thought studies were a breeze, that I could do everything without really putting effort into it. Everything came to me, without me doing anything. However, it became obvious that I lacked all the knowledge that would have helped me succeed, the knowledge that I would have acquired if only I motivated myself to work harder. Results were catastrophic. I drove myself into a pit, where now I am struggling to climb up.

A lot of things have changed, why can’t this? Why do I always have to be in some stupid fuckin loophole?

the search for true happiness…?!?

It’s been more than a week since I came back from vacation. Everything’s almost back to normal, I guess. I’m restarting work tomorrow, chez Metro. aaaaagHHH! I’m back to the start.

Manu’s looking for an apartment to live in. Since I don’t have much to do and he’s busy like hell, I’m helping him find his way, I guess. Can’t say if it’s his own benefit or mine that motivates me… I am quite glad that he is finally cutting loose from his mommy trail. I believe it is for his own good that he does this now more than ever, and not a moment longer. And of course, yaaaaaaaaaaah! finally, more privacy! (Dirty little girl!) *sigh

SO! If anyone, by luck, is reading this, and happens to find something…
We are looking for:
3 1/2 – 1 bdr – ~$500 location: NDG, CDN, CSL, TMR, DT (montreal, qc)